This unhealthy behavior led to sickness, weight gain and aclinical diagnosis of depression. I felt as if I was losing control of my life. I was going through a divorce, my dog died, my mother was sick and I felt as if I was trapped in a box of negativity. I couldn't see anything beyond my misery and unhappiness. I was filled with guilt because I knew I was not being a great mother, and my smart, beautiful daughter had a front row seat to me losing myself. This lasted over a year.